Anonymity...

The one great thing about blogs is that no one reads them, lol. So I can say what I truly feel without worrying about who will know.

Ready... Set... Go!

I love you!
About 51 percent as a friend
and 49 as something more
And I kind of adore the way you look to the floor
When you just don't know what to say.

Everyday I have to peptalk my way
out of falling for you.
And, granted, you get my nerves so tightly strung
That neurons are the only other stimuli that goes farther.
But I don't bother with those trivials things
Cuz your smiles makes my stomache do tiddlywinks
and brings moisture to the nether regions of my being.

I want to bathe in your caresses
And rake my hand through your tresses
Nevertheless, I still remain strong.
I could make you feel awkward
And take us backward
but to what purpose would that bring us?

I love the love we have
It's so unassuming and intelligent
and so freaking transient
That I think i'm giving myself ulcers.
I wish i knew that we were doomed
so i could continue on with my life.
I'd let our time pass as any other natural occurence
and find the will to move on.

But dammit, there's hope
and i just can't cope with the potential of us.
I need to mentally give you up
If only you were just a fuck!!
But alas, your ass is definitely a full package
And i've thrown away your warranty

Please don't be concerned
My mind has not turned or strayed off of the path
I know exactly where we are at
And, more importantly, where we'll end up
I am just a little hung up on the irony of fate
that would bring you to the right place
but on the wrong date
that bitch!

To My Aunt

I hope I never forget to never forget you
I want to etch your sketch
into a perpetual mental state
Of mine
So that I find you there every time I look.

I want to see a book or phrase
And think back to faded days
When you'd make a silly face
And that strange way you used to laugh...

I want to never forget the day you gave
that homeless lady the shirt off your back
and all the money you had.

I don't want to be the one
Who only wants to have fun
Cuz it hurts to deal

I wan to remember every hairstyle you had
That was always 20 years back from whatever time period we were in

I want to remember your skin
How soft it was and welcoming
How I'd breathe in your hugs
like warm buttermilk

You WILL reside in me
A constant in my memory
A metaphorical centerpiece
To what makes me be

I WILL praise your name
And celebrate your days
I will not let you be disgraced
By letting you fade
And I swear on my grave

I will NEVER forget to never forget you!